Eclectic

Without company
With a "minnie fashion"(emo) fringe
a blouse 60´s retro style, dark new jeans,
fashion brilliant red sandals,
an old fashioned brown bag on shoulder
I always thought everybody display on street a way of life;
a defined one: for their clothes and the way they walk: speed in steps, have a destination and such attitude in their movements.
I see people laughing, in sunday, giving me a quick glance.
Everybody seems to be making the sunday ritual but me.
I feel unique for this very moment...
I feel lonely...out of planet...of wave...I feel out...
I´m right now like a tourist of every simple place...
an spectator...just that...
Where are my planet?
I feel eclectic right now
and for the first time i find that name
for my situation for years and years of loneliness
but anything like today, anything like this weird month...
I have such sensation like if I would have taken a piece of everything around and have made my outfit for the sunday ride...for my life ride.. I feel eclectic, unique and very lonely.
Suddenly i find a great song on ipod...
and I say for thousandth time to me: i´m better right now, like now, eclectic, lonely, unique, I can´t surrender, I just cannot.